All my life I have been told by peers that I go to far and too deep into things. I've been told by my own teachers not to split the atom, not to think too deeply but, this is my nature and I believe that if I can split the atom then I can go nuclear.
I'm well aware of the things said about me by my peers. Objections, complaints and slander all spoken in my shadow. I've been taking hits by my peers physically and verbally all my life that I've grown quite stoic to them. However, what I hope for is for the students all around the world not be influenced and turn themselves bias based on someone else's objections and complaints and that they themselves do their due diligence in the matters.
I have been accused of many things in my martial arts career. It has been said that I only care about the money by some of my local peers (peers being other FMA teachers), It's been said by some peers that I lack integrity, it has also been said that I'm too wild, aggressive and a maniac but out of all the complaints there is one fact that none of my peers can ever argue and that fact is that I study, research and train hard and more often than the vast majority of all my peers.
Do I go too far in my study? Perhaps. It is very possible that for my peers I go to far. It is very possible that my Kali goes too deep for your teacher.
There are different reasons and wants for every student in the study of martial arts and there are different reasons and wants for every teacher also. Most students want to study martial arts at a surface layer, they have other things in their lives that take on greater priority. A few students want something deeper within themselves. The esoteric students, the fewest students want something deeper than themselves. I believe that all reasons for learning and training are valid and should be respected. However, there is a difference when it comes to the different reasons for teaching. Other people are counting on teachers and trusting teachers to guide them on the right path for themselves.
Just as there are different depths for students I believe there are different depths for teachers. Some teachers want to teach the surface layers of their martial arts while others want to teacher to help their students research their deeper layers within themselves. There is a third type of teacher. The type that is to dig deeper and reach the depths of the esoteric. Each of these teachers are valid and correct. It's important that the student and the teacher find their match.
I am not a good teacher for all students around the world but that doesn't mean all students around the world cannot learn from me just as any other teacher. My teaching reflects my learning. I teach because I want to continue to dig deeper. I teach because I need the other minds of my students. I need their questions, I need them to present problems to me, I need them to challenge me.
I'm not training Kali for me. I'm not studying the blade for me and I'm not doping any of this for you or my students. All of this is for Kali. It is all for the greater system.
I go too deep because the blade cuts deep and life is deep. I dig deeper because it's truth I am after. I've grown tired of other people's interpretations who don't train and continue their studies or who have become bias to another person's ideals.
I go deep because I want to under stand true virtue, dedication and discipline. My life is devoted to the greater system and learn to speak its language through the blade. This is why I don't have time to object or complain about my peers. I have no interest or time to stand in their shadows.
So maybe I'm going too far. Perhaps I'm digging too deep for the majority but, that's okay. Like I've said from the beginning of Kali Center, this is not a popularity contents for me. Kali Center is about one thing and one thing only, TRAINING.